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V Matsumari's avatar

Loved this! Such a randomly well timed read for me personally; been thinking a lot about protection and distance versus this raw friction closeness you describe, and I’ve been reminding myself that I’m in a constant state of being undone, in one way or another - or as Virginia Woolf said in the Waves, “I am made and remade continually”

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Bruno's avatar

What a great read! Thank you so much for sharing it. Very moving. I don't *need* to read thoughtful pieces like these from fellow gay men, but I must say it's nice once in a while to see some of those specific life angles, moments and perspectives (and humour!) mixed into an otherwise more universal reflexion. Thank you!

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Rosa's avatar

“…to become the kind of person who finds, in that arduous repetition, a new kind of pleasure through the slow and sacred thickening of skin, which is not a barrier but an estuary where you and the world meet.”

oooh so good

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Adam Chase's avatar

Such a good and timely piece! Thanks, and I look forward to more as a new follower.

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Kelly Hambly's avatar

Wonderful writing. Thank you for giving new words to that long, heavy feeling I’ve carried for decades.

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Rosie Spinks's avatar

This was gorgeous!

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Spencer R. Scott's avatar

Thank you Rosie!

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Shanti's avatar

this is so lovely, totally deserved to win - made me feel tugged towards some of my own projects, nebulous as they are just now

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Rachelle Derouin's avatar

Beautiful, thanks for sharing

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Adam Wells's avatar

The inspiration I needed today. Thanks Spencer

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Brendan O'Keeffe's avatar

Absolutely beautiful. I want closeness with everything and everyone. The person who I'm buying something off on marketplace, I want to know their story with that item. The friend of a friend who comes to a gathering, I want to include them in the next gathering. My mum, I want to call her and not let the distance between our cities become distance in our love. You articulate it so well how difficult I find it being someone who yearns for closeness when everything seems to be making us distant and very few are actively fighting it against that in their own micro world.

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